Friday, October 22, 2010

More Terminal Certainty

I've recently shared with you the nature of a disease under the weight of which I am literally collapsing. The leaders and coaches in my life refer to it as "TERMINAL CERTAINTYITIS". The more certain I become that I must control my surroundings rather than leave an imprint of Jesus where I tread should lead to the most certain item of all - I actually grow more uncertain each day by clinging to my terminally certain perspective that I can rise above and conquer the world as a "self made man". The true and ugly reality is - I need to long for gracious insecurity. Look, I don't have the answers to life's dilemmas anymore than you do... but I understand that He does. What good is clinging to man made certainty once we realize that the certainty of man (including this one) is wholly insecure and facing relational bankruptcy. Certainty is the mark of the commonsense life - Gracious Uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. "Our natural inclination is to be so precise, trying always to forecast accurately what will happen next, that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing...The nature of the spiritual life is that we are certain in our uncertainty... Certainty is the mark of the commonsense life... gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, not knowing what tomorrow may bring. This is generally expressed wit ha sigh of sadness, but it should be an expression of breathless expectation. We are uncertain of the next step, but we are certain of God. As soon as we abandon ourselves to God and do the task He has placed closest to us, He begins to fill our lives with surprises. Jesus said, "...unless you... become as little children..." (Matthew 18:3). The spiritual life is the life of a child. We are not uncertain of God just uncertain of what He is going to do next. If our certainty is only in our beliefs, we develop a sense of self-righteousness, become overly critical, and are limited by the view that our beliefs are complete and settled. But when we have the right relationship with God, life is full of spontaneous, joyful uncertainty and expectancy. Jesus said, " ...believe in Me" (John 14:1), not, "Believe certain things about Me." Leave everything to Him and it will be gloriously and graciously uncertain how He will come in, but you can be certain that He will come." --Oswald Chambers